not ready to make nice

Not Ready To Make Nice - Dixie Chicks

I'm Not Ready To Make Nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

mock xm

i had my mock exam just now. ingatkan kene next week, but then sarah bg tau that bernard wanna do it today. so i was caught a bit off guard la. and i went in unprepared... okla, sempatla tgk certain chapters yg i think penting...

n the exam went ok. dpt case appendicitis. bernard will always give good feedback. i adore him for that. he will try his best to keep u motivated. but what i like the most was when the patient backed me up. he said that i know a little bit of everything and i will be a good doctor~~ heheh, terharu jap especially the part where my patient intentionally help me to answer some of the questions. since bernard was looking towards me for answers, the patient at the back gave out many signs and gestures indicating what he thought was the correct answer.. sweet kan.. hahah

and of course bernard loves the fact that i bonded well with the patient!!!

i'm not feeling well actually today. initially, i feel like skipping the whole Thursday and stay in bed sleeping but yesterday, Bernard said that he's going to talk about murmurs today since two person were missing yesterday. he wants everybody to be there.

and oohh, i saw her. after all these months, i still hate her. she's evil!!! she made my 2nd rotation a misery!

things to do before i turn 25

since i'm turning 25 next month then what the hell..

1. i would love to be debt free. u see, i spend a lot and buy a lot of things that i seldom use. i use my cards like almost every time i go out. damn those impulse purchasing!!
2. i hope i can get better grades. if i get grades like this when i was in high school, i'll probably shoot myself and die. it is embarrassing. but knowing that i'm in final med and at least a third of the class is getting more or else the same grade, then it's a bit comforting.
3. i honestly feel that i need to learn how to play at least an instrument. in my eyes, musicians are sexy!! my brothers play the drum and the guitar. my sister is a good pianist. and me, unfortunately i'm not musically talented.
   
4. i really need to be in love, like seriously dangerously to die for in love. get dumped. and fall in love again with a better girl who is going to be my future wife. it's all about the right timing. past encounters are of no use. i walked away too early
5. i know Liverpool has a slim to nil chance of winning the premier league. but i hope MU will not win it either. it's so annoying seeing them taking it all. i know i'm going againts the odds here. even if they do win the league, i hope they'll lose on other encounters.
   
6. i need to brush up on my presentation skill. i'm amazed at some of my peers who are very fluid in their delivery. sometimes, it doesn't really matter what u say but how u say it is more important. me... i talk too fast when i'm nervous. that is not good.
   
7. i wish i can just go out there, take the next plane and go to somewhere exotic. but surely, in the right state of mind, this isn't possible.
   

having said all of these, i know, when i turn 25, most probably i'll ended up not doing the things that i've mentioned above. so, why bother jotting it down then? just for the fun of it i guess plus to fill up some empty gaps in between my next entry. :)

snow

setelah sekian kalinya, snow dgn begitu lebat melanda bumi cork!!!

pagi before keluar, jenguk2 window... fuh... byknya snow! habis all the grass dkt halaman kene cover with snow, and the cars, the top part & bonet pun diliputi salji.

then, on the way nak pegi bas station depan rumah, budget nak naik bas 7.25 pagi, tapi kuar dlm 7.20.... dlm hati rasa mcm bas dh lepas jer... huhuh. before sempat sampai tempat tunggu bas tu, ade kereta pull over, tanye, nak ker S.I ker?.. heheh, angguk, n die ckp masukla.. =), oh itu kereta dr syuk ya.., dlm kete pun masing2 sembang pasal snow. everybody was excited about it.

then, masa dkt S.I, keluar jap, nak pegi town.. biasela.. gap between tutorial lama, so apa lagi... then on the way jalan tu, a heavy snow turun!!! rasa mcm best giler. like a wark in the park when i was in Amsterdam ( sbb pegi time2 bulan mac jugak!). it was snowing for a good 20-30 minutes jugakla... rasa mcm nak amik gamba. tapi jalan sorang2 la pulak. malu pun ade..

oh, before i forget, yesterday, when i did my hx taking with this one patient.. he looked out the window, it was raining a bit and he said to me & yopit.. i think it's gonna snow tomorrow!!. and tup2, mmg snow pun hari ni... then, i saw him again today at the corridor. i said, u were right mr. it is snowing!!! die pun ckp.. i told u, didn't i!! heheh, and somewhere close to the main entrance, nampak pulak dr hewitt dgn his former spr (norin). ape yg diorang buat dkt S.I ek??

kene tegur dgn landlady lagi semalam.. sigh

asal la aku yg rajin bukak pintu.

die ckp nak hire orng clean the walls, or possibly repaint them. huhuh

anyway, this week is my anest week. but i went to the theater for only an hour. couldn't find the consultant. stuck with the reg i think, and he left me after 20 minutes. so aper lagi...

isn't it funny that we always have the answer to other people's questions but not our own...