easy win

Serena won easy. the match lasted only 58 minutes!!!.

though i'm happy that Serena is collecting her 10th slam, but i was anticipating a better fight from safina. and despite her win, Serena didn't even have to invest so much energy & effort in playing. she was definitely at her baseline level when she beated safina 6-0, 6-3.

words

the thing is.. when doing a write up, u always find urself clicking the word count button every now and then. somehow, this can ensure some comfort if u have reach the target number of words. but unfortunately, i haven't. so, i'm all panicky now... aiyaya 0_o

a good day

i'm glad to have watched federer securing a place in the finals after beating out roddick in a straight set match. it would be good to see federer & nadal again in the finals. their ongoing rivalry is legendary. but above all else, i'm rooting for federer. and i hope he wins.. . big.

and i'm less enthusiastic about the women's tennis. i don't know. i'm a fan of the williams sisters. but as we all would've known, anything is possible in the WTA. there are no clear front runners. everybody has an equal shot.

blur

i feel like shit. my FYP is a mess. although at the back of my mind, i have this wonderful vision of how my project should be like, but it is harder to channel it into black & white. i just wish that i could pull this through. i don't know. just hope for the best.

scentful

after numerous outings searching for the right fragrance ( hehe) during the winter/january sales, then i finally settle for these two:

huh

all this while.. at the back of mind, i always ponder on the fact that i tend to be prejudice what it comes to u. i just don't know why. i am nice to u because i have to. the present circumstances will not be in my favour me if i acted on the contrary.

take a bow

the other players have left. the stage is empty. it is being stuck. it is entrapment in a time warp. the costumes no longer fit. the buttons have popped. we're different people today but we're still forcing the action.

we have yet to forgive ourselves. hanging on to dreams which did not come true, losses... a loved one who had left us, a youth gone, opportunities which had disappeared.

the game is over. but we're bad sports. we refuse to accept defeat. we run the tape over & over. we can put it to rewind but we can't play the role anymore. and all we have to do, is to turn around... and walk away. the past is not holding us. we are holding it.

we can't put the past to rewind anymore. the buttons are stuck. the actors have gone to other roles. the set has been dismantled. it's about time.. to take the final bow. turn the light off because the show is over.

crashed

my vaio laptop crashed yesterday. need to get it fix asap. who among my gentle readers have a window vista recovery CD, corkians??

my bloody valentine 3D

it is a 3D movie. that is probably the only good thing that i can come out about it. other than that, i really thought, it was a waste of money. the plot is poorly developed. the storyline is cliche, a repetition of what most horror movies are, and the acting is so so at best. heck... i laughed so many times that i forgot that it is a horror movie to begin with.

verdict: not recommended, unless u have plenty of money to waste around.

BNF

my registrar was very pleased to see that i carry it around. she keeps on saying "way to go aiman!!" about 3-4 times. heheh, x yah susah2 cari dkt desk station. my consultant pun pinjam my bnf. so, the least that u can do (pointing out the fact that u can't answer most questions!!) is to carry a BNF!!! it helps... seriously!!!

a nice day

though things haven't been all that great but it's good to receive complements when u least expect them. and this is coming from the words of the patients that i met. thank u. =)

stepping up

in this harsh reality of life, it is nearly impossible not to care about what grades u get. having been slaving ourselves through med school for the past few years, certainly getting a first class honors is rewarding. but underneath all the good hopes & work laboured into achieving such level, the reality is a little too far within our grasp. and lets face it... good grades can be a plus. people with good grades get a lot of recognition. it boosts one’s self esteem to know that one is performing well. the better ur grades are, the better ur odds of securing a job and in the long run, traditionally it is supposed to open lots of doors for better career opportunities.

but what about the rest of us? what does it say about us if our grades are average at best, possibly worse? how are we going to get by without as many doors of opportunity open to us? are we snubbed just like that.. being punish for not performing as well as some of the high fliers of our peers? are we doomed to a life of mediocrity?

i don't know why i write about this. maybe because i'm a bit bitter of the fact that my grades now are no where close to what they used to be. or maybe this is a self comforting words that i use to remind myself, that there are more into working life than just getting good grades. i don't know. yesterday, as we're finishing our 3rd rotation (paediatrics), dr.C gave out a good few pointers on how she sees life after medical school. and what i'm attracted the most, is where she lashes out that for the majority of us, the mediocres that is... we don't really need to worry as it is our bunch that usually shines the most after med school. it could be a self compensatory thing that we do, to push ourselves ahead or maybe because we're trying to prove a point. that we could be a somebody. yes, surely ur grades are better than mine now. but does that mean that ur gonna work up the ladder faster than any of us!! maybe?... or maybe not.. =D

and again, as we are drawing closer to the end, personally for me, it would be interesting to see who among us will reach up the top the fastest 10-20 years down the line... position wise & also money wise. if based purely on my observations of which i could be bias about, i see some promising talent among my fellow peers. but of course anything could happen & i wouldn't want to write off anybody. so, it's a fair race. best of luck to us all.

the thing about blogging

i like to write. i like expressing my opinions, my views, my dissatisfaction or critics through writing. but recently, i felt like the true joy & pleasures of writing are no longer there. sometimes, i write just for the sake of continuation. i don't know. maybe some day, i'll stop writing. the same applies to my other blog. i no longer hold the passion to contribute ideas there.

i'm sorry... ='(

the reality is..

last week, i went to my friend's house. we did some studying & of course a bit of chit chat along the way was inevitable. and my friend asked me:

friend: what are my housemates doing?
me: i don't know. there are all in their rooms. maybe they are studying
friend: ic, then when do u guys get together? do u guys eat together for dinner
me: not really. most of us dine whenever we feel so. we don't normally wait/call for others.
friend: really. well, in this house we try as much as possible to wait for one another before eating. we also emphasize on praying together as well.
me: silent pause

i paused because i don't know what to say. i'm embarrassed of the fact that sometimes, even though we live under the same roof, i haven't seen some of my housemate for 3-4 days!!! and it's not entirely their fault. each of us are entitle to do what we wish & have our own privacy.

i know this sound a bit sentimental. i don't really anticipate much and i haven't confide this to anybody before. i like it the most when all of us are in the same room just doing things, be it eating, watching TV or just loitering. and i'm afraid sooner or later, unintentionally we could end up being strangers in our own house. and i dread that moment when we no longer care for one another.

there's something about Mary

i had a rerun of this film last week. again, the movie made me laugh all the way through. undeniably, this is one of the best comedy film with Cameron Diaz in it. like how they put it..."she's a fox!!!"