i've just encountered one of the tackiest word i ever read.

u know the wikipedia right? the online encyclopedia ... then if ur searching for hot babes then, where would u look up them for...


erk... apparently...

chickipedia!!!

friday

hari ni tgk jadual, ade grand round pagi, lepas tu xde tutorial

jadi, dgn senang hatinya, saya pun terus tido balik lepas subuh, menggantikan tido2 yg x mencukupi sebelum ini

lagipun, petang ni ade klas lama sket and esok pun ade kot. so...

n JPA membayar claim secara berperingkat... hmmm

my supervisor said this,

"if ur here later this year when ur an intern, there's an orthopedic research prize, u should submit ur work. honestly, i don't think u'll win but it will be good for ur CV."

heheh, honest giler. x kan menang. huahuahua. but utk CVku nanti...hmmm

anyway, Alhamdulillah, settle dh masalah ethics. dh dpt surat tu. Alhamdulillah

it was supposed to be a spot on diagnosis. so we went. ok, at first sight, the patient is jaundiced. and i thought there's more. since the patient had a tracheotomy, then he was unable to speak. and a routine thing to do, is an examination of the tummy and the patient consented on that.

as he was about to lie down from a sitting position, he suddenly coughed quite violently, gasping for air and pin pointed at his tracheotomy site.

and i was .... shit! we panicked, we called the nurse and he glanced, gave us the degrading cynical look.!

so lesson learned. i'm not going anywhere near a tracheotomy patients !! .

a beaten face

under her umbrella..ella..ella..ella

*kredit to the owner

i want to be u

no no.. not like u, but u. i want to be u

think about this for a minute. think about how u would react if someone told u that who u are as a person is the one that is holding u back. and worse, deep down, u wanted to agree with them. u knew they were right. so, would u do it?

it's a cruel world out there. they were telling u to stay true to urself but secretly, they wish u were a different person. would u change? would u become someone that let u live what u wanted? would u cast aside the person that is holding u back completely and fully to assume a brand new role that doesn’t resemble the old u in the least?

and truth be told, we wear different faces all the time. a student, a son, a friend, a lover, a leader... each part of us yearns to be someone else. more confident, more go getter, more fortunate, more intelligent.. and if u had the chance, would u do it? would u take on a role that makes opportunity possible, makes life easier and makes ur dream become reality. but more importantly, who would u be?

the grass is always greener on the other side. i don't know why but at this time and space, i wish i could be u. not like u... but u.

new guidelines

i was talking to Liz yesterday, and she said that the new FYP guideline is actually meant for the 4th years!! no wonder there is so much to write about because their required word count is up to 5000 words!!

so, there is no need to go to that extra length like how they put it in the new guidelines.

my supervisor wants to know the date. he asked to me to tell him in advanced before the project presentation. he might be able to attend. hmm... O_0

proofreading

i went to CUH just now to hand in my draft for my supervisor to check on. and along the way, i met yopit & aina. so we sat, chat and i asked them to have a read on my project. and i was corrected quite a few times by them.

so, what i want to suggest to all final meds....before handing in ur project to the medschool, it is better to seek opinion from ur colleage. aina even said that the irish girls are doing that too. they take turns checking for grammar, the content or any general opinions that they think might add up to the project. for example, yopit thinks that i have too many tables. and i repeat the sentence p<0.05 quite a lot. even the table size was being commented!! x cantik!!

because, on our own eyes, we tend to overlook small little details that we think would not have matter that much but others might have a different say. so again, double check with ur colleague. we might be surprised to learn the feedback! and of course, i don't mind if u want to read mine as long as u give constructive comments after reading it!

good luck to all ya..

takziah siti for the loss of you father. Alfatihah

alysha

that's my niece, naureen alysha. isn't she a beauty?

auld lang syne

reminiscing old acquaintances that i haven't been in touch with and the present friends that soon i'll be parted with.

deleted

i have the tendency to delete entries that i'm not really comfortable with. when i wrote it first, it was a spontaneous impulsive act of wanting to share opinions and ideas of any particular subject

but then, when i read it again, back and forth, i can't help but to feel a little embarrass of my writing. that's why sometimes, u'll see my entry disappear within hours.

kind hearted people

pagi tadi ade orng tumpangkan pergi mercy. baiknye die.

asalnya tunggu bas no10 sama2. sesambil tunggu tu borak2 la skit. tunggu punya tunggu, bas x sampai2 pun. so ingatkan dh terlepas bas. jadi, plan nak gerak naik bas no.8 pulak la. then on the way tgh jln tu, pakcik yg tadi tu slow down kan kereta die, n ajak masuk, die tanye nak kemana? so, ckp la nak pergi mercy hospital.

die ckp ok. die anta kan. ngee. alangkah bestnye jika sume orang mcm ni. x yah susah2 tunggu bas.

n tadi masa tutorial dgn spr haematologist. bincang pasal myeloproliferative disorder dgn polycythaemia rubra vera. and honestly, mmg x tau apa2 pun. so diam jer la. dh hbs tutorial tu, dgn tiba2 die ckp. "i like ur name. it's a good muslim name!". heheh

25 randomness

been tagged in facebook, but i do agree, it's more fun jotting it here. plus, i think fewer people in my facebook circle reads my blog. so, i feel less embarrass.

1. i introduce myself as aiman, but i do prefer being called ilman instead. it's more distinctive
2. my favourite colour is actually red. but i own few clothing of that colour
3. i don't really buy the "love at first sight" concept. but "lust at first sight" can happen
4. out of all of the schools/colleges that i've been to - primary, secondary, matrix, kmb and ucc, my best memories are mostly during my KMM days.
5. the only tv series that i follow now are grey's, nip tuck & gossip girl. i lost track of other series.
6. i'm practically a naive person. so many people make fun out of this..
7. i like the number "7".
   
8. smart people is a turn on. i just realize it recently.
9. i always have the hots for oldER people. yes, i said older...not elderly.
10. i like jumping around in my room. ask azan or izad.
11. sometimes, i don't realy agree with the postings on my house blog 75 summerstown . but there's nothing that i can do about it. but i can whine about it here right..? that's why i keep on blogging my thoughts here.
12. in relation to no.11, for example, i don't like discussing about politics. period. i know the lads will read this. that is my intention.
13. but having said that, i think each of us have our own personal approach when it comes to writing. minus the politics, i have no other complains.
14. i have 9 nephews & nieces all together. yes, i'm an uncle long ago. i'm the youngest in the family, so it make sense that most of my siblings are happily married with lots of beautiful chidren. =)
    
15. when i sit in @ the mapley, i usually order "teh tarik kurang manis + roti kosong, x nak banjir tau" --> that's the exact phrase that i use
16. like some other people, i feel bad for any shops/stores with very few customers, but unlike them, i don't go and buy their stuff. i just feel sorry. that's about it
    
17. i have crushes on so many people. but it's just a phase or what i call "infatuation". i'm pretty phobic about commitment.
18. i like my room spacious. if i have it my way, i prefer fewer furnitures in the room + lots of pillows
19. talking about pillows, i normally sleep with 3 pillows. no... i don't have orthopnea. it's just a comfort issue.
20. i watch movies a lot. and "pride & prejudice" (with keira knightley) is pretty high up the list of my all time fav movies. other honorable mention include "pan's labyrinth, shawshank redemption and LOTR trilogy."
21. in between chatting, surfing the net or doing write ups, i play "solitaire" every now and then
22. at heart, i'm such a chatterbox, but i can swicth it on or off depending on the crowd or the conversation.
23. i always want to go to Munich, Germany. but i don't know when...
    
24. i like to study on the bed. and sometimes, i do doze off while reading....
    
25. i'll be 25 this coming april!!
    

project/claim/bday girl

trying to finish up my project this week if possible so that i have plenty of time to revise it thoroughly next week. my supervisor is away this week, so i can't really seek his opinion on the results bit. but thankfully, i'm in my radiology week.. more or less a free week.

call cik afidah just now about my claim for the paeds rotation. along the conversation she asked about the dates of final xm n graduation dates. and i honestly think that she has it all planned up to check on who's staying and who's coming back for good. hmmm...

and lastly, today is wahidah's 25th bday. so happy bday to her. i wish her the very best of luck and may her wish come true. but careful for what u wish for... hahah. after all that u've done, u deserve a special mention in my blog. thank u and sorry.

i've become so numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface...
Don't know what you're expecting of me,
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes....

Every step that I take is another mistake to you...
And every second I waste is more than I can take...

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired so much more aware,
I'm becoming this, all I want to do..
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb...

spss & politics

honestly, i haven't got a clue on how to use the spss. try it a few times already but i still haven't obtain the analysis that is applicable to my project.


and on a different note. i'm getting tired reading or talking about politics. i hope my other blog doesn't continue to be a lengthy discussion on current political affairs. hopefully, the other lads deviate away from that subject. and if the issue persist, then i really have nothing further to say. i'll just be quiet and stay out...

and don't get me wrong, i have a stand but i don't like voicing it up for the public to know.

autumn in my heart

i had rerun of a couple of episodes of this drama series. even now, it breaks me to tears when i watch it.

i got life

some of the reasons to be grateful for;



p/s: it is my intention to make a double post for this entry. =P

progress

firstly, Alhamdulillah.... got a few ideas on how to expand my project.

but come to think of it, sometimes i can't help but to notice that my fyp is some sort of a joke. it looks very amateurish, far from the sophisticated writing that u'll read in the journal.

KMB

as some of u would have known, i'm a regular forumer, and just a while ago, i came across this particular thread that caught my attention..

Kisah seram di area Kolej Mara Banting


hmmm.. interesting...

=)

yesterday, i was being "lectured" for not thinking & throwing my answers randomly and somewhere in the middle, the patient voiced out his opinion and say these kind words..

"i don't know about u doctor (referring to my consultant), but i think he is a very good student (referring to me)

and my consultant replied; "we're only here to teach the students"

i smiled. because somehow, although it may not be true all the time, but if ur nice to ur patient, then they'll back u up. =)

fed

the fed-ex express fell short. but he made it a 5 setter still. i am disappointed... no doubt bout that. but deep down i do believe that he can win another slam. yesterday, he lost to a better player.