2009

happy new year!!!

mixed feeling. on one hand i'm excited about the endless possibilities that i would encounter this coming months. but on the other hand, i have an exam next week + my project is still a mess, and the due date is so close!!!

disappear

when i think about it, i know that i wasn't really there or even care. the more i think about it, the less i feel that i could share...

bosan

i'm bored yet i procrastinate. i whine & i complain although i know there are so many things that i have yet to do. i have to study, i have to do my project, i have to prepare myself in a more serious note.

boxing day

26th dec... tapi kedai tutup lagi. seb baik x pegi town biarpun dh bgn awal & x tido lepas subuh.. heheh. tapi esok ade lagi. jom shopping!!

solitaire

bgn tido, mandi, makan, solat, main solitaire, main solitaire, main solitaire all day long smpi berjam2... haih... =/

detailed shots with my canon IXUS 80 IS

i am... sasha fierce

basically, beyonce officially unleashed her alter ego (sasha) to command the second half of this album. the idea is nothing new but considering how she market her alter ego, i have to admit that the end result is somewhat excellent.

for the first part, mostly soft, heart soul ballads.. the tracks are amazingly good. it opens with "if i were a boy" , followed by "halo", a truly heartfelt song. the rest especially disappear & broken hearted girl are one of the memorable tracks. for the B side, it focuses more on the energetic, fierce and electrifying sasha... the hit single form this one "single ladies" already got me hooked with the catcy & notoriously spontaneous lyric. i like it a lot. but the remaining tracks for the B side still haven't fully caught my attention.

remember ??

the canon ixus IS 80 that i bought a couple of months ago...

well.. well... since only recently that i contemplate of upgrading my my cam into a nearly SLRish (but not quite) version.. i only discover the wonders of my existing cam!!! there are so many functions that i have yet to fully utilize!!! and just a few hours ago, i'm very tempted to purchase a new extended lens cam!!! cet... k.i.v dulu la cmni..

so... i phone 3G anyone??? hahah

a thought

now that the ending is approaching, i started to ponder back on the beginning. on how i evolve as a person in general... looking back, there are things that i did along the way that may not yield the best self satisfaction kinda feeling, but there are the right things to do nonetheless.

and i'm still learning, gathering new information as i passes my mark on every step of the way. i know i'm not the best here & chances are i'm not the most likable either. 5 years & counting, it is pretty self evident. but no matter.. there are more important things that take priority in my list. and make no mistake about it.. i wanna do good always, setting a high standard that i find to be impossible to live up to.. but if somehow i managed (insyaAllah), i want it to be because of me & not due to others. i have lost interest to compete againts other people...

i want this ...

and/or

this =D

2 weeks winter holiday

i'm not going anywhere this holiday =( . so... another phone to compensate??? hmmm

playlist

• love lockdown - kanye west
  
• hot & cold - katy perry
• run - leona lewis
• single ladies - beyonce
• if i were a boy - beyonce
• like a boy - ciara
• everybody's changing - keane
  
• spiralling - keane

the real thing

i thought her performances here were phenomenal. she looked so effortless & she blended well with her dancers. she is certainly a class above the rest.

wed night dinner

dinner with shahied, aiza, yusma n butter @ a chinese restaurant. the food is ok la. tapi ralat sbb my fried rice xde kuah. seb baik yusma & butter bg skit kuah diorang. ngee. then some beli garlic bread dkt papa john.

tuesday

nothing much happened today. had an early lunch, sat with the surgery people. then in the tutorial, drM. was dead serious. each one of us had their fair share of questions. and i truly felt like we were in the setting of the show, "the weakest link". yikes... !! but no matter, i learn a lot too. plus, there's a patient with maple syrup disease.

and yeah, dinner with the girls was canceled. so, i'm sitting in my room watching simpsons. =D

Run

sometimes, u just want to run, go.. n get disappear with the one that u care for.. but certainly this isn't possible. life is more than that. at times, u don't do certain things not because u don't want to do it, but rather u know u shouldn't be doing it.

who???

malu nye.. tadi i mistaken my classmate for someone else... tego die dgn nama lain... heheh, nasib baik die cool. dh la sebelah2 jer, boleh x perasan pulak... sorry tamara .. ngee. =D

n something good happened today (nothing to do with xm) .. heheh.. i'm happy =)

the duchess

i wept when they took eliza away from G. a film beautifully made with a great casting to boast. not recommended to those who anticipate light romantic 18th century love drama. this one is heavy with emotions!! an 8/10

where my readers at ??

on the 13/12/08
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case study 3

describe the CXR. credit to *jimbocyberdoc*



answer:
Left hemithorax opacity (total lung wipeout). The meniscal line can be seen at the left upper lung zone indicative of pleural effusion. trachea deviated to the right.

belek2 pic lama, terjumpe gamba ni.. ahaha... tersenyum ku sorang2 didalam bilikku di limerick ini.. ngee... betapa memori lama terimbas kembali... argggh!!!

opening up the ex(es) files

it kinda hit u.. the pressure is on & u feel that the clock is ticking when ur best buddies are trying to pair u up with one of their acquaintances. and i have to admit, that i do enjoy the attention, and the who's who analysis. the efforts that my buddies have shown are just incredible. i can really see that they are putting a lot of work into this, coming to the fact that i narrowed down almost every single selection that is presented.

and in a way, i feel blessed that they want me to be happy and their defintion of happiness is i quote " to be in a stable relationship". and i've been single for the last 2 years and along these 24 months, i've been constantly pressured to meet up with someone, a friend of a friend maybe... i don't know. i tend to laugh & joke it out when issues like this are being brought up to the table. digging up the old black book, my records aren't that favourable. i had a couple of nasty break ups. and it's hard to believe that more often than not, i'm the mean half. i just don't know how to deal with problems. i don't fight. i walked away too often. they got fed up ... and i left. sometimes, i feel a bit envious to see people who are happily entering half a decade of a relationship & as happy as i am ... i don't have that.

and i dated people from all shapes & sizes. i've been there & i've seen them all. particularly the last one, it was a bad end. now looking back at my exes, some of them are happily married, some are dating other people & the rest remain single.

and i know, some may think that this topic is a little too private @ controversial to tell it all. but i don't care ... because they are all in the past. i moved on. but thank u for the effort guys. ur the best. and ooh... i haven't decide on anything. only time will tell. heheh.

Paediatrics: part 3

as much as i hated to say it upfront, but i do admit that upon entering the 3rd week of paeds rotation, i have to say that paediatrics isn't as bad as what i painted before. when i wrote it a week ago, it feels like i want to prove a point, to show to the public & the readers that they are more options to choose from. the part where i said that crying babies irritate me, i kinda missed the part where they are acting their age, showing emotions & development accordingly. and it really doesn't take a lot... my ego shattered to pieces when a girl with the most enthusiastic & charming personality greet me with a very warm welcome. she had me at hello, and i was sold there & then. and the part where we were brought in the play room was a reminder of the past. it unleashes the the kid in me... as any happy 3-4 year old toddlers out there, i found myself, recklessly scooping around, and searching for toys to play with. and i enjoyed it.

so, having said all of these, to some of u..i'm sorry. i take my words back. being peadiatrician is just as honourable profession as the surgeons or other medical specialities. ur bunch are the one that we send our children too. u keep them healthy & well during the first few years of their life, .. giving us the opportunities to manage & cut them open when they get older. =P

where my readers at ?? (1/12/08)

thank u for visiting my humble page despite the infrequent entries lately. u've made me smile =)

on recent things

• i should've been on call tonight. but since Dr. M is taking over, then i was advised not to go

• this blog hasn't been properly updated. i'm sorry. the other one kept me busy.

• the incident that happened, i now think that is blown out of proportion. i'm ok... really.
  

• but the one thing that keep on rewinding on my mind every now n then is still a bit upsetting. because u really thought that they meant it. but after the remark was made, i secretly wonder if all the complements that i received before this are one of those "make u feel good" comments. and i try to see the funny side of it, trying my best to turn it into a big messing around kind of feeling. but it turn out that i am profoundly disturbed. from being surprise, to being furious, 3 days after... i just feel sad.