now that the ending is approaching, i started to ponder back on the beginning. on how i evolve as a person in general... looking back, there are things that i did along the way that may not yield the best self satisfaction kinda feeling, but there are the right things to do nonetheless.
and i'm still learning, gathering new information as i passes my mark on every step of the way. i know i'm not the best here & chances are i'm not the most likable either. 5 years & counting, it is pretty self evident. but no matter.. there are more important things that take priority in my list. and make no mistake about it.. i wanna do good always, setting a high standard that i find to be impossible to live up to.. but if somehow i managed (insyaAllah), i want it to be because of me & not due to others. i have lost interest to compete againts other people...
and i'm still learning, gathering new information as i passes my mark on every step of the way. i know i'm not the best here & chances are i'm not the most likable either. 5 years & counting, it is pretty self evident. but no matter.. there are more important things that take priority in my list. and make no mistake about it.. i wanna do good always, setting a high standard that i find to be impossible to live up to.. but if somehow i managed (insyaAllah), i want it to be because of me & not due to others. i have lost interest to compete againts other people...
