on recent things

• i should've been on call tonight. but since Dr. M is taking over, then i was advised not to go

• this blog hasn't been properly updated. i'm sorry. the other one kept me busy.

• the incident that happened, i now think that is blown out of proportion. i'm ok... really.
  

• but the one thing that keep on rewinding on my mind every now n then is still a bit upsetting. because u really thought that they meant it. but after the remark was made, i secretly wonder if all the complements that i received before this are one of those "make u feel good" comments. and i try to see the funny side of it, trying my best to turn it into a big messing around kind of feeling. but it turn out that i am profoundly disturbed. from being surprise, to being furious, 3 days after... i just feel sad.